o simplemente hacerte mierda, mi vida!

what do i need? what do i wanna do? what am i looking for?
am i looking for something? and you? what do you feel? is
this all? it s here where it finishes? or here is where it starts?
what i wanna be? i wanna be something? tú, entendís?
thinking? asdfghjklñ if for just one day i could stop thinking.
stop thinking about everything, not only about all this mess.
i want to stop thinking about him, her, he, hi, hola y yo. and
what if i leave? do i care about something? asgfsdfgfjhhg no sé.
do i know something? do i understand something?
viste que hay gente que está muerta y tendría que estar viva
y hay tanta gente DE MIERDA QUE ESTA VIVA Y DEBERÍA
ESTAR MUERTA? is that fair? eeeh, i think i hate every single
people around me, i am gonna spit all the shit that is inside of
me, o no sé. y ayer me bañé, capaz el jueves.. well, quiero decir
tantas cosas, but i don t know if i am afraid or if i just want to
wait a time. este temita de vivir es un bardo en realidad. hola,
yo sé inglés pero escribo de a ratos porque me sale así viste?
putos. and it's such a shit listen to the music and not understand
anything. and i am not the one who is crazy here. THEY are
crazy. look at them, listen to them, what do you feel? it s not
easy trying of understand the reason of all this. yeah, pero
también es un bardo tratar de entender porque siempre nos
queda "algo" para seguir... and now i realize that i am
thinking again. creo que me estoy contradiciendo
repetitivamente, at the end of the road.. cuando
me desperté un día y me dí cuenta que no todo era
como yo creía.-.-.-.-.-.-.romperte el corazón o simplemente
hacerte mierda MI VIDA!. and i think that i am sweating,
whatever. hippies de mierd#. me siento como un posito.
¿te imaginas? tenerlo así de cerca... touching his hand,
smelling his perfume (or not) (?). see all, but all the details.
tenerlo así, ahí y que te esté mirando y que no haga falta
nada más with the look in his eyes, he transmits what he feels,
what he thinks, everything. (mierd#!) la $$$ del orto. y el
aguarràs, capaz el miércoles.. and the clítoris is the órgano
eréctil of women ubicado in the parte superior of the vulva
(connnncha) y hoy es sábado cinco de julio del año dos-mil-otcho
y son las siete y treinta y dos pe eme. HE IS STUCK IN MY HEAD.
ANOTHER TIME I...PLEASE, I FAILED. IT STARTED
IN "HE IS OVER ME". HE PUTS THE RISK AHEAD
AND I VE BEEN SAFE NOW FOR ONE YEAR BUT HE
MADE ME THIS, NOW HE IS DONE WITH ME.
(pero en verdad todavía no, todavía) y si esto fuera de otra manera,
then it must mean...